Battlin This Drug War
by Elizabeth Mooney
(The Bean)
This is a Poem that I wrote and I look at it everyday to show me how much pain I was in and then how today I want to make a change. I always have to remember where I came from and that I will never be cure yes I may recover but I have to look to my higher power ask for help for another day clean, I have to go to meetings, ask for help, get a sponsor, and do the steps and if I follow this I will get better. I hope that this poem can help someone to show them that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.
Battlin This Drug War
The thoughts I am having are causing me pain
It's like a thunderous down pour on my brain
I feel so freakish like I am a leashed up dog
This addiction I have is keepin my mind in a fog
It feels like I am walking in the dark down this endless path
I just can't remember when I was happy last
My body is tired and my brain completely fried
I would rather not be here on this earth I just wanna die
Though as I keep existing in this world
The drug use just keeps going and the lies unfurl
And right now I feel so used and burned
I just want to make amends that is all I yearn
Because there are so many things that I have done
That are deceitful and disgusting that I think
This drug war I am in just can't be won
Every day I pray for the fog to lift and for me to be happy again
With your help Oh Lord I know I can
As now I enter into recovery from this addiction
I know I have to change my old ways
Though I know there will be some friction
And have to let my drug using friends go
This I am sure of for now I know
Because now I am ready to become a better human being
I am going to look to my higher power to help with the healing
And try not to hurt myself or my loved ones again
So hopefully they can believe I want to be the person I was way back when
Poem written by Elizabeth Mooney